Restored Spirit

I’ve had at least two times that I knew there must be more to life than what I was experiencing. Too many details to go through so I wrote this:

Life was good; raising my family, working and going to school
I must have done something wrong to disappointment you so much
You’re my parents, I thought you loved me
Trying to reach you, you’re too far from me to feel my touch.

Standing tall and confident I fought for my rights
System failed me, the world failed me
Then I met him, life is not good from what I see
No more joy, no more peace, to me you give only fights.

My clothes are torn, my spirit is broken
Cuts and bruises, inside and out; doctors and surgeries
You’ve won for now, my light is burnt out.

Kill me you say and tell me what you’ll do,
Scared to leave because, I really believed you.

One more fight, you beg for forgiveness
The roses you gave didn’t cover the wrath of your boots
Across the living room you swept my body like a broom
Shocked, afraid, I felt my life was doomed.
Ok I forgive you, where else can I go? No one can ever know
But wait…am I the fool in my unselfishness?

Broken, alone, has my spirit really left me?
Go ahead call me selfish, for the light I am starting to see.

I picked up the pieces he broke, laugh all you want, I am not a joke
The jigsaw puzzle my parents made me is now coming together
I AM good, I AM worthy, and my walk becomes as light as a feather.

Forgive me as I have forgiven those who took my spirit like the pedals of a rose
Aha! I say, today is a new day; I AM good, I AM worthy, I no longer feel so dirty
The light is brightening, no longer frightening
Life is good, now a part of my family.

Even now as I write this I relive some of those feelings and emotions. It is in the knowing that life can be good, that we can overcome circumstances as we are guided by our Spirit our Creator, taking comfort in realizing that there is more to us when we take the time to listen and feel His presence.

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